PrOpEr but Broken.

I felt so sorry.

Sorry to my parents -I didn't get to spend much time with them when I'm at home. Instead, I'm still sitting here facing this bloody grey laptop with connection crawling as slow as a bloody snail.

My HTC pda is still at the 'hospital'. It let me down after I showered it with unconditional love and affection for 4 months. So I came home to country, ransacked my drawers, and found my old Motorola L6; all glittered up with cheap fake pink and white crystals. I checked my inbox.

I couldn't help feeling even more sorry to all the people whose messages I never got to reply. Airene, Audrey, Oliver's... All of them who sayang me most. What have I done?! Thank God I didn't reply any of those fair-weather friends' either; or I can't sleep tonight.

So I replied them all; some with a "Sorry" note in the beginning, some at the end of the message. I even SMSed those I lost touch with, but no one replied back.

*****

You know what was this ONE thing I felt so sorry to me about? Have you ever heard of people saying, "If you rare a dog for too long, you will look like one?". Or an adopted child will eventually grow to look like her stepmother? A white man will start using "LAHS" if he resides here for too long and find himself a Malaysian wife.

TWO days BEFORE I entered Malaysian Dreamgirl, I broke up with my Chinese Australian boyfriend. I don't want to get into how hard it was, especially for me, during that period, but one thing for sure was this thing that I kept on getting. -My Australian Accent. Sounds like a DISEASE, doesn't it???

***

They, hated me "and" it, but they loved watching me "with" it. Perhaps it's like AIDS and sex. I don't know.

But the truth is, I still can't differentiate an AUSTRALIAN accent, and an AMERICAN accent until TODAY!!!!! I swear I can't. So tell me, how was I to fake it.

I AM SO SICK OF TRYING TO SPEAK

"PROPER-BUT-MUST-BE-A-BIT-BROKEN" ENGLISH;

ADDING IN DASHES OF "LAHS" & "LEHS" & "LOHS" IN MY SENTENCES,

JUST TO PROVE / SHOW THAT

I, TEY CINDY,

AM A HUMBLE GIRL WITH MALAYSIAN QUALITIES,

WHEN I SPEAK!!!

Because that doesn't make anyone who hates me change their fucking mind to like me anyway, righttt??? So WHY DO IT.

IF YOUR ENGRISH IS SO POWDERFUL, WHY AREN'T YOU AN ENGLISH TEACHER?

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And when in the world have I EVER said that MY English, is GOOD. WHEN???

NOBODY has to have "good English" in order to blog. Most Americans couldn't even point out where New York is on the map, does that mean they have to live in Greenland? Can you point to ME where Labis or CHA'AH is, in a Malaysian map?

You might have big brains, but your brains are as small as your balls or tits!

*****

It's time to STOP feeling SORRY.

I AM FROM A SMALL TOWN WHERE MY
ENGLISH TEACHER
WAS THE ONLY ONE I COULD SPEAK ENGLISH TO;
& I LEARNED SPEAKING ENGLISH BY
WATCHING "F.R.I.E.N.D.S",
& READING ESSAY BOOKS TO THE MIRROR!

I should be proud to be able to speak English in a city like K.L today.


To all Chinese bloggers out there who blogs in Mandarin,

Do not be afraid to blog in this foreign language, even if you are not good at it.
You LEARN from mistakes, and only those cowards who are AFRAID to FALL; are glued to where they are, for ever because their egos are bigger than their thick faces!

STOP CRITICIZING A MOVIE AS BAD,

IF YOU CAN'T PRODUCE A BETTER ONE;

OR EVEN COME CLOSE.

WHO IS PAYING YOU TO BE A BAD CRITIQUE?

YOUR BLOG???

SO I WTRIE LKIE TIHS & I STLIL GTE CA$H.

YIIIEEUUW???