Like a Princess.

yesterday, someone named Someone told me to "think classy", or to "be like a princess". i understood Someone's point, but it took me a while to picture what Someone expected from me.

the first image that came to my head was all these korean drama princesses loaded with fucking heavy atrocious laces, walking around kik kok-kik kok in their heels, wearing make-up at home for wallpapers to see. but i suppose, that was not what Someone meant.


perhaps being a prince in korea is worse. i mean, look at them!!

coming from a (very, i emphasize VERY) small town, in johor, i grew up with barbies and toy cookeries; but there was more to that.

there was the cycling & bleeding, the stealing jasmine flowers & frying them on milo lids, the rubber game (we called it zero singapore for god knows why), throwing rocks into the hamsap ustaz's window who rubbed his fingers on 10 years old muslim girls' pussies while preaching about 'agama'...

those are not princessy deeds, are they?


this was when it started - the cycling thing. but with lipstick on. SEE?!

no one is BORN a princess. a princess must be TRAINED to be a princess. and she has to WANT to be a fucking princess. most city girls ARE princesses and though i now live in the CITY, but my home is still the jungle. that's where i came from.

when i was in my teens, i cursed a lot. hello, we are Johorians. mostly hokkiens. i'm not saying ALL hokkien johorians curse, but i was one who grew up listening to kanina, lin lao hia, linbu, linkun, lan jiao tua, chao cibai... everyday. i said, every. day. in school. i was the only chinese girl in class with 10 other chinese boys; what do u expect?


a princess today?

after spm, i went for national service. i marched hell lot. when i was in high school, i taught marching. i'm amazed at myself that i can still walk in heels today. but hey, even so, i don't let the heels control me! i wear them to feel sexy, but i kick them off bloody heels when i feel pain. princesses can't do that! but i suppose again, that this was not Someone meant either.



so what did Someone mean?

in college & uni, i was in a performing arts course - acting. u learned to express yourself. every feeling that you experience, you feel, you remember them. you keep them deep inside you so when you're onstage, you have your bank of 'savings'.

that's how i can shake off a laugh and cry in 17 seconds (fastest record so far) when my character needs to. we students, were trained that way, and that skill, be it a good or bad one, has been implanted in me.



what do people usually mean, when they say a girl is 'so princessy'. demanding, i suppose? i am. a drama queen. and as i say this, i am not proud of it. i'm not celebrating it. but i am embracing myself (you should because in the end of the day, only you would) because i understand myself so well about where i am coming from. and i despise anyone who is my friend, but is actually secretly hoping for a change in me.

i can be very demanding. dead if you are my boyfriend. but only if you are an unromantic boyfriend. so does that mean i have a 'princess' attitude? be i a princess or not, why is this even a matter. huh? why.

you either like it, take it, or leave a princess. a princess doesn't go to you. and that doesn't mean a normal girl can't do that as well.

Kenny once said that i am a failed princess. i totally agree. i never found the words to describe myself, until he put those two words together.



screaming like a to-be-slaughtered chicken? - FAILED.

so what in your opinion did Someone mean? i don't know. maybe if Someone were to judge this picture, Someone would say i should've screamed with my mouth close!

i won't deny that i love to be like a princess. after all, i am a girl and i enjoy dressing up in nice fabrics & heels, putting on lip gloss & shuttering those lashes...


dreaming of prince charming on my 'princess' bed?

but deep inside, i do believe that your childhood shapes who you are today. they are qualities - i have mine, and you have yours. you can't deny them or act like you don't know them. for those who doesn't have any, too bad because you only live once and you can't turn back time to be a kid again.

but if anyone, anyone, tells you to change (not a bad habit but) a quality in you, don't ever do it.



trust me, there are so many people out there, and there will be Someone who appreciates you for who you are, be you a princess or a fake princess like Cinderella.

Drunken Frogs and Durians

I had Stew Frogs in Chinese Wine for dinner at a Father's Day celebration, and Durian as dessert after. Well GUESS WHAT? I almost DIED.

Like seriously, I almost DIED!


At first I thought I was too stuffed. So I walked back and forth in front of #711 and even tried to jog a little. For all I knew, I felt like a dying Ballerina and so I lay down on the sofa breathing heavily.

"I think I need to puke!" I said, and ran to the loo. Puked 4 times, shitted 4 times. One after another. I couldn't be bothered if perhaps, my neighbour could hear my farts. Sexc, huh?


I felt comfortable in the weirdest positions ever. Sitting on the toilet bowl with my head hitting hard against the wall, squatting by the toilet doorway crunching my abs tight, pinching people and pillows, making annoying baby sounds... It was too late to see a doctor that night. The pain made me not feel like talking at all. It's like I have autism or something.


The next day after consuming proper medication, I felt better. Better each time I squeezed my Mother Thumb under sofa cushions while watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Sitting made me felt like puking, while standing made me felt like fainting. My esophagus felt so congested like there's a traffic jam goin' on inside there.


I really didn't know the alcohol content in that amphibian stew was thattt strong; so strong it could react with the bloody King of Fruits! I was the only one who had Durian after, but two of my cousins had food poisoning too. So I suppose that fucking restaurant is very unhygienic after all.


ARRGHHH! I just need to complain as much as I can to as many people as I could. Let me be. *sobs* I'm still feeling sick and it's already the third day I'm home. )))'=

Kacang Babi

Interesting Fact of The Day

Do you know that peanuts are not 'halal' in China?


Cause the name is pignut. Not peanuts. Ha Ha Ha... XD

A Life Like This is a Kind of Life.

In a couple of hours time, I'll be in Shanghai. Walking in the midst of busy Chinese; holding hand in hand with my Hokkien family - amah, gugu, me, Eu, dad, and mum... just so we don't get lost! But hopefully NOT together with a bunch of old people from the same hometown as mine (cause we're joining a tour), trailing behind us. *GASPS*

Sigh~ Why must it be always old people who join tours. Why can't young people accompany me too?!

But anyways. Since I can't assure you how often I can go online there, I would assume the worst; which is that I couldn't. Having that said, I've decided to post an entry based on events and pictures so that the comments you give won't require much answering. Unlike a makeup post. Okay?

So here we go!


Heineken's 'A Night in Rome'.
Frankly speaking, I did not feel Rome at all. It's too green! I felt Hulk-ish. RAR!!!


Bump into my ex colleagues from 98.8 FM; Yeow Hui and Edmund. =DDDDD

Man, another ex colleague of mine, was there too and she was sooo kind and friendly to me! It could be just me; but I honestly felt that colleagues are not your colleagues anymore once you don't work together under one roof! They become your FRIENDS.


KY | Me | Horng | Robb | Huai Bin - with a bottle of Heineken each.


The pretty fun part about this event was when this two siblings DJs from OZ started spinning their indie music. *yummyliciousss

Looking at this picture of them reminds me of the next event; which is:


Nike's Summerdelic.
The colors felt so summerish they looked like they were gonna spring out anytime soon and make friends with the crowd!


I call this the 'Romantic Dress'. ^^


The shoes are as colorful as the food are as colorful as the shoes.


Summer Cuppies!!!


Made friends with Eri's photographer-kaki mates. I basically waited for almost 10 hours there. I'm joking. For almost 2 hourss?

Thank God the emcees were doing a good job hyping 'it' up or I'll..... =x


Ean and Rudy from Hitz dot FM.


Malaysian Lady GaGa climbing here and there.


There were pole dancing performances like this by cute boys and hot chicks.


Climb! Climb!!


When I say "FU", you say "YOH" --- "FU YOH"!!!


Cheerleaders from Malaysia's High School Musical 5 Fan Club. (No that doesn't exists, HSM fans)


The end of the event felt like a spilling rainbow; without the pot of gold raining coins.


This one is NuffNang's Star Trek movie premier.


Thanks Bin Bin, for the ticket. Sorry I kept dozing off!!! Haha~


This final event is infused with 100% toxic and 100% elixir. It is the LG Launch Bloggers Event!

Red on red on red. Can you see me?! @@


Inside the bar where the event was going on...


Check out my sexc devilish Scorpion tail, baybeh~ Are you stung?? hahaha...


However, you certainly can't even try to be evil when there's an angel like this standing next to you. To me, Carol was the real angel there; in and out. (:


Yatz has his long pony tail as his halo. 'I can feel your halo halo halo~'


Nicholas is definitely a result of Angels and Demons. HAHAHA!!! Look; he wore white and owns a pair of black horns at the same time! ;P


Zeus was the most good looking guy there I suppose. Once we took this picture, a paradise of girls started to blind him with flashes.


I took picture with a boyband! A fake boyband! A real bloggerband!


Red Mummy was SUPER GORGEOUS and I LOVE her makeup! She deserves to win the TV.


Ruby bOOby in her killer red silk cheongsam. *um mmm~!


The beautiful Princess Isabella who owns a closet.


Fair and lovely Tzia is so sweeeeettt!!! I like her!


Cute Hitomi - you were very friendly and down-to-earth. *hearts!


Ee Ching and friend - both looking nice and decent in white and black.


If men kill with guns, women kill with looks. Which is better? hahaha!


The happy-go-lucky bar tenders who asked for their picture to be taken. *awww...


And here's a double awww. These 3 fellas in their best clothes had to push their car on a Friday night; just before they reach the club. ROFL. While Ruby and I.....


Went QUATTRO!!!!!


Poor Mancis Francis. Tetek pun kena cubit.


That's all for today, folkies. I gotta continue packing. Perhaps catch some sleep; before the Dream Catcher catches me~ Wish me a safe flight to Shanghai!


p/s: This blog will still be updated as usual by the pretty Jeremy Teo and handsome Eri Peng. Have fun!