My Quantum of Solace.

Here comes my last Perhentian post.





My IKEA clock shows 1.32PM now. I'm lonely. A piece of me is sitting on this cold, hard floor with my feet on the carpet. Sitting at the hall in front of the blank TV screen, I'd rather look out my corridor. It is not impossible for yesterdays' sad memories to be played on this black box; on this channel only I can see.

It is hard to not avoid either. Every part of my house is decorated with frames and pictures of us. They easily travel me back to that place we first met... that war-torn country town; so different from this concrete pile of mess I've no choice but to live in. I only want to go back there to yesterday. The past could only hurt me that much.

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I guess this is the good thing about blogging. We can travel from one world to another for FREE! (:

Back to the island; NO flying fees OR even tax needed, here we are...



If only transporting the body would be that easy... but I guess the level of appreciation among people would degrade then.....


Some shots with Tim tai kor:



Ha ha ha ha.... I have no idea what was happening. =P


Flags and Posts:




Here's a simple sentence I know you think you understand but you'll never. I actually forgot how to smile when I was there for 5 days. I've FORGOTTEN HOW TO SMILE! And I'm truly surprised how I got this shot! Perhaps it's the magic hat I got from this island. ^^


At the dive center, "Sea Horse Diver":









Those were the days.....


And if I were to work & live there forev? I'll work as a... Fish Book Guider!!! lol



Possible~


Sailing the way back alone:

I left Perhentian alone by myself. As heavy as my heart felt and all those bullshit words I could've used to show how much I missed the island, why don't I say... I actually bumped into 2 really nice people in the boat I was in?! hahaha!!!


Herbert Yap and his friend. ^^

Herbert fetched me to the airport, together with a German diver and her roommate. They were heading to Thailand by the night bus; which the tickets they haven't bought, and I was heading to YOU-KNOW-WHERE (WHERE ELSE COULD IT BE) with my printed receipt in my hands; but still worrying I would MISS THE FLIGHT.

For a good couple of minutes, I wondered: Why Asians have less courage to leave what their parents think is BEST for them, instead of exploring the World?

Our parents give us life and that life is Ours. So why do we live doing something we don't want to? The world is so big and there's so much to explore; why are we standing here static doing the same old damn bloody thing every day, every year? How old are you now?? How much have you seen???

Sometimes, it's really not about the Money. I'm sure this German diver I know just identified what she wants to do, and just does it good. Now she's traveling all over the Planet; & what about ME. I don't have that courage, but aren't we BOTH humans too? )))))))))):


It's 2.11 PM now on a Sunday afternoon and the rain is slowly subsiding... While I'm missing the flight perhaps I should have missed forever.

SHINE 2; but it's not really a Commercial!

*for new updates, my previous post is updated!! (:*

I know what you guys might be thinking.

"Oh dearrr, here comes ANOTHER advertorial."

But hey! This is not an ad for the sake of being an ad. It's about ME; and IT. STARTS. IN. ME!

Read this and you'll never regret it. I promise it's gonna be worth your time.


So let's hit start NOW!!!

I hate RED LIGHTS when I'm driving on the road. Who doesn't like to be given 'the green light'? Well the good news is today, ALL of us here ARE given a bright CHANCE to realize a DREAM! :DDD

www.itstartsinme.com

The picture here is not that clear, but it says something like this:

Step 1 - Register and Personalize your own BALLOON!

Step 2 - Write down your DREAM...

Step 3 - Submit and SEND your balloon HIGH into the SKY!!!!!

*YAY!* DOESN'T THAT SOUND LIKE SO MUCH FUN?!

I felt so happy when I read that sentence out loud. So. What is Jade Z's dream and and aspiration? Please don't laugh at me when I say this; because I've pulled up a HELL lot of courage to go sincere and personal with this post instead of going you know- "ooh i want to go Africa, oohh i want to save Iraq!, or or... i wanna do this, i wanna do that."

My true and intrinsic dream (since i was TWELVE), is to be a singer. Yes, you read that righttt~! A singer.


My attempt to sing at a friend's birthday party at Australia.


Here comes the interesting part you DON'T wanna miss: -


My attempt to follow my (then) idol; pop princess Jolin Tsai.


Inconceivable. The things a fan can do to copy their idol.


My Li Wei Song School of Music golden moments:


Singing "yue liang dai biao wo de xin" for Mid-Autumn Festival.


Other achievement(s):

I was actually a winner for NTV7's "Shout Out It's Saturday Night" TV game show for the "ying dong mei shao nu" category (where i danced), and then won 1ST Runner-Up for the Top 10 Finals (where i SANG!!!) *blush like wtmf~*


With the other contestants. (please check out my finger)


With Astro's singing competition's Year 2005 Winner 2005; Kok Hui. (please chop off my fingersss!)

I didn't get through the first round. When it was my turn to audition, it was already 7.15 PM. )))= i was actually all geared up and prepared, but (to those who wanna try Astro's singing competiton please take note that you'll have to bring your BIRTH CERT) a friend who tagged along forgot to bring hers and all of us had to wait for her Mum to FAX the photocopied cert all the way from KELANTAN. Like courtesy la, to wait and sing bergether-gether. Sighz~

The doors were closed, and we went back with nothing. BUT. BUT!!! i WAS on TV again! You know those ad clips they update for competitions every week? I was one of the chosen ones for the Round 1 audition's to be aired on TV, and my cousins from K.T were calling and went like.... "You~!@#$%^&* I though you went thru!"

i know. My genuine dreams slipped away once. )))))=


For the next couple of years, i gave up trying. i thought:

Maybe one can't sing to make a living. It can't be a real career, can it? Plus, to make a living?! So the karaokes over the world became the place for my passion to live...


Melbourne...


Vietnam..


Imagine if Jade Z comes out with an album. What kind of life would that be? Hmmm.


Learning how to dominate musical instrumentsssss? / More photo shoots??


Set up a BAND?!?!?! HA HA HA!!!!!


This, people, was and IS, my true dream. But 70% of hard-work and 20% of talent is nothing without 10% of LUCK.


And if..........


if....................



Dutch Lady SHINE contest can help realize my dreams..........

Yea folks... that's my balloon i sent up to the sky heaven. Hopefully God reads it too.




Do you have a dream? If you never get to think about it, START! Log on to www.itstartsinme.com, register, and get ready to be surprised~! I honestly don't feel like I'm doing an ad for Dutch Lady. It's just too much fun to share!

p/s: the "it starts in me" website is the coolest i've seen so far! please believe me; i would DIE to have www.jadezheng.com like that. jeez! maybe i should send another balloon up for this dream! should i should i??? :D

Kiss Me Goodbye

if there is a puddle on the moon with a bone lying in the puddle , (forget the absence of gravity) where will you think the bone came from ?

it is a very bad habit to leave provoking thoughts without elaborating , but this is exactly what i want you to feel right now . cuz this is how III feel right n.o.w .

when you read this sentence , i was actually away for 3 hours before . went WHERE ? watch YouTube . HAHAHA !!! and you know WHAT ?! i think i am in LOVE !!! in love with WHO ???

WANG - LEE - HOM . muahahahaha ...

well , it's not like this is the first time i declare i LOVE leehom , but these are the things i found out today which i so BADDDLY want to SHARE ! :

# i don't want to marry anyone except leehom
# I don't want to marry anyone except leehom
# I DON'T want to marry anyone EXCEPT leehom
# I DON'T WANT TO MARRY ANYONE EXCEPT LEEHOM

# I WANT to marry WANG LEE HOM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but leehom is 31 already ... = FAINT !

dot dot dot . . .

WHY leehom so HANDSOME wan ?
WHY leehom so TALL wan ?
WHY leehom LOVE his FAMILY so much wan ?
WHY leehom's VOICE so good wan ?
WHY leehom so TALENTED wan ?
WHY ... WHY ... WHY ...

WHY leehom is at the STATES wan ?

WHY leehom is NOT MINE wan ?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!

L - O - L !

if i can't marry leehom i will just dedicate my life to YouTube and watch leehom in it till i am 30 , then go die happily . CAN ?!?!?! sounds like an awesome idea !!! *=D

if i really get the chance to see leehom face to face one day , also no use . really . you know why ? cuz i am 101% sure i will faint in front of him . then when i wake up , he is gone . my chance will be given to some other bloody people ... NOoooooooo ~!!!!! then when i open my eyes , leehom is seen holding my left hand ; asleep beside my hospital bed .

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mami arrrr ~ ~ ~ ooooo ... i will be the HAPPIEST HAPPIEST HAPPIEST HAPPIEST HAAAPPPIII-EST girl on EARTH , man ! then faint again then i marry leehom and we live at the states with NO paparazzi ! wOOt ~ !

HELLO . what is wrong with dreaming ? those who dream are those who behold a future ; as when there are dreams , there are wishes , and whenever there are wishes , there is will . when there's a WILL , there is a WAY !!!!!

you watch movies like Hairspray where Tracy the fat girl got ZAC EFRON (!!!)
you watch movies like A Cinderella 's Story where you know lah what ~
you watch movies like Princess Diariesss and what happened in the ending ?

but you think it happens it real life ahhh ? no rite ? but then ? you watch them !
or even if you don't , people still PRODUCE them for those who DOES watch them . and the REASON why ? some people dare NOT dream , and only by watching corny or tacky movies like that they have a space and reason to dream ~

there's NOTHING wrong with dreaming (unless you just dream but never go-for-it lah) , so Keep On Dreaming , people ~ ! like ME !

let me share a dirty lil' secret with you lah : my 4GB iPod is filled with a whole shit loads of songs genre , but ALL - I - EVER - LISTEN - TO - IS ... LEEHOM's . hahaha ! serious . i even have like Which - Song - to - Listen - at - What - Weather . then my mind will just automatically switch to #[V] mode where i am seen shooting The Making Of leehom's MTV of that particular song . lol

leehom ... I LOVE YOU !!! muahahahahaha ! and i will NOT find a bf slash husband who DOESN'T resemble you at all . hmph ! that , would be an insult . q=*

i love leehom as much as i love krispy kreme too ! (thanks , Suresh!) no , actually i love leehom MORE , ok !!! bad krispy kreme ! insult my hubby !!!




i finished 20 donuts in 4 days ; 5 donuts per day =
1 in the morn , 3 in the noon , 1 at night .
and imagine now how many kilograms had i put on now ? !!!

but i swam for a hundred (yes , 100) LAPS today ! and according to my ex SUKMA swimmer friend , they swam 150 laps daily for training in the same size of pool i'm using .
so please do sallute me . lol

there are other donuts ! but inedible .


they are fizz soaps !!!


nice , eh ?? ice cream bar soaps !!


for pink lovers


*NEW* product weh : CARROT is the *NEW* ingredient !


Creative Innovations for SOAPS and BATHS !









i wanna make one for leehom and put in our house .



now i feel like bathing ...















with leehom .





HA HA HA HA .....................