*sighhh~* i feel so sick -like i would feel better if i throw up my heart; just to see a bunch of troubles dangling onto it. i can SO picture that. how picturesque~ =.=
it's Valentine's day today, and here i am feeling extreeemely lonelyyy. and blogging.
i have people who cares about and around me, but this "i-dont-feel-loved" syndrome is haunting myself.
However, i am actually here to thank these people who made me feel loved THIS Valentine~ :
Darren - Thanks for calling up and making me feel so good about myself again, and this day itself. Your ability to make me feel "i'm NOT alone!" never fails to cheer me up. & tho i might not get your hand-made paper flowers, i'm glad to know you are working & giving them out today-carving smiles on people's faces. ;)
Winson - Arigato, arigato, arigato. I know how much you love Japanese~ Thanks for always being there to "catch me when i fall!" -never, NEVER fail to be there for me ANYTIME, ANY DAY. Being the only person so far who never fails to listen and understand each and every word i loathed. -i'm grateful to have an angel like you. ^^
Oliver Jeyrald Lee. - For your continuous advise, support, and guidance, i sallute you. you are, "The Man!"~ hahaha!!! Thanks for your amazing CV sample, being bold enough to tell me where i can improve, bringing out the best in me, and always find me on MSN eventho i'm so "Away"... aiyo! q:
p/s : thanks for your V'day e-card!
Allie; Yaw Mei - A friend who never forgets me no matter which part of the world i'm in; thanks for always being the last one to end an SMS session. (:
Busy Airene - For everything. Everything, babe...!
Great Sheon - For reading my blog and posting supportive comments no matter what the HELL i do! you are definitely a GREATTT guy~!!! ;D
Kok Hao - My ex handy man, victim, student, and guru; For never forgetting my birthday and Valentine Day wishes. Tho we've stopped the card exchange tradition, your wishes revive in me every year... Thank you.
Nicole; Sze Yin - Thanks for being such a helpful cousin, soul mate, or (ex)-housemate-(to-be)? I will NEVER, NEVER EVER forget the day you tried to take those lenses off my eyes and rushed me to the hospital..... We missed a date today, but hopefully we'll have more to come~!? xD
Timothy Tjhung - For believing. Supporting all that i'm doing. Scolding me to wake me up. For loving me no matter how rough and hideous i become, balancing my life's pH, saying "eh beauty man" to remind me of how beautifully nasal i am in your eyes every night, endless calls and text messages; which sadly feels like they are fading away slowly these days...
Brother Eugene - I love you MOST amongst all. You did everything EVERYONE else does for me, and even MORE~!
Daddy and Mummy - Happy Valentine's Day...! Mum's backing a cake for dad; i can smell the fragrance here from my room.....
*sighz* i wanna bake a cake for someone TOO..... )))':
:) now thats awfully sweet of you.
ReplyDeletesimple facts: i love your blog. and i love your (blog)personality. so, i will be your loyal reader for as long as you write :)
i've always wanted to make ppl around me at least smile, if not laugh. i believe the world needs more smiles and laughters. and i am on a mission to do just that i spoz. hehe.... quite aligned to my philosophy to being the good-guy under any circumstances.
this 'i-dont-feel-loved' syndrome has been my soulmate for many years. its especially intense during occasions like today. but, i feel it everyday, since my ex abruptly dumped me for a rich playboy who she thinks could give her more pleasures. it has been 4 years now, but this wound is far from being completely healed.
i have made sacrifices to become what i am today. and at this stage of my career, i have raked in some achievements that i am very proud of, i celebrated them all alone.
good thing is, i get to spend all my salary on myself!! hahahaa.... or maybe i should allocate some to buy you something next month>?? hmm.......
happy V's.. :P
ME ME ME bake for ME !!!!
ReplyDeleteI want that cake you bake in Tazzie, can't remember what name but you siad it was a local recipe of somthing XD
Anyway, I am spending Vday alone too, so no worries, you are not the only one
happy Valentine to you :)
hahaha X,*whisper* dont bake for him..i got muffin for valentine.hehehe
ReplyDeleteI used to have double the dose of "loneliness" since being the V-day eve kid, people tend to forget about the eve all together and I am left with 2 extremely lonely days...
ReplyDeletewell, this year wasn't too bad, I mean the eve.
Anyway, the someone will just be round the corner waiting for your cake. =)
im not angel,im not ur family,im not ur brother,im not ur bf,bcoz u oledi got; but im ur best friend! maybe i cant always around at u,maybe i cant call u,maybe i cant see u, but i'll support u anytime anyday. ;
ReplyDeletewhen u feeling sad,lonely,unhapi, maybe u can thinking of me a while, imagine im an angel..
i oledi pray for u, wished u dream come true,healthy,beautiful..
i love u, my best friend..
gambateh! :) :)
And congrats in getting into the next round of MDG if my info wasn't at all inaccurate.
ReplyDelete"i-dont-feel-loved" <<< me too me too. Haha.. Take care and appreciate more then I think you will be loved.
ReplyDeleteWish all the best.
Ops.. visit me @ http://paradiseofcure.spaces.live.com/
ReplyDeleteI'm not blogging always anyway. haha..
sheon : thanks for being my loyal reader; tho i m not a very persistent blogger. its great that you've come this far, & i guess everyone had at some point, & i'm gladdd. (((: dont have to buy anything for me- just wish me good luck & pray for me for my Msian Dreamgirl next aud!!!!! :DDD
ReplyDeletex : aww~ i was pretty surprised to see u actually still remember the 1st cake i baked! thats pretty sweet of u, x. ^^ a very happy belated Valentine to u... xoxo~
fluxevz : really? for me too? i think basi already ler... cuz Valentine's like... few dayz ago!
mrbherng : i hope so; next year, maybe? hehehe!!!
wins : thank you, wins~!
mrbherng : yes! i got it~ u got that piece of info pretty quick ey~! ;)
howkeatgoh : thanks for your wishes & blessings ya.. i'll link ya? xD
gosh u have such a big head.... and btw why were u crying in MDG? DONT BE A DRAMA QUEEN PLEASE THX!
ReplyDeleteA REAL BITCH who has scolded and cursed her own autie in her blog just after Chinese New Year. She has so much hatres with her family that includes her auntie, her eldest aunt and so on. She even cursed her auntie when she had her womb removed by saying pandang muka and she only had 2 daughters and no son, as if she will never get any sickness througout her life. Anyway she deleted that particular part in her blog. She try to potray a good and kind image but in actual fact, she is a real bitch and cannot get along with everyone. Don't be fool by her apperance by trying to be pitiful and pretend to cry! Vote her out!
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